clidren, growing-up, miscellaneous, quotes, random, thoughts
As a little girl I remember thinking twenty was old and in my Cindy make-believe world my dolls would all be married with children, living a fully grown up life. Later in my teens I’d look at the mid-twenty-year-olds and think how exciting their lives where,living away from home, studying, traveling and ever changing boyfriends. In my early twenties I’d be in awe of the thirty-year-olds and wonder in awe about their lives filled with houses, kids and spouses.
Looking upward at people older than me I always though how grown-up, adult they were and always thoughts that one day I too would grow up and be an adult. But somehow that didn’t just “happen”, well it hasn’t yet anyway.
I still skip and dance around my home, I still giggle over immature jokes and oddities, I still believe in miracles and the unexpected. I get excited about Christmas and squeal with enthusiasm over gifts (both given and received), can’t contain myself when I find a promise of an adventure. I love reading fairy-tales and hope to find my prince one day. And I still catch myself thinking about what I want to do “when I grow up”, wondering what I’ll do when I am an adult, dreaming about far-away future.
The odd thing is I am turning forty (yes 40) this year, a fully respectable and adult age. But I don’t feel much different from when I was six, fifteen, twenty or thirty, maybe a little wiser (only marginally) and definitely a lot heavier, but otherwise I am still me, curly hair and all. I do have a few more wrinkles around my eyes and have a few white hairs sprouting amongst my dark locks, but I am still undeniably me.
So maybe this growing-up business is all just a big conspiracy, something that doesn’t really exist. We age but don’t really change, we learn how to behave and what is expected, but we flip the switch once we are alone. As country singer Bryan White so aptly but it”
We never really grow up, we only learn how to act in public
I can identify with this. It isn’t any different when you turn 60! I too dance around the house. In fact, I was dancing on the stairs when I slipped and came down them all on my bum! Ouch! I certainly hope I grow up someday…I wonder what I’ll be?
maybe never … i think maybe it is all just a ruse
Adorable you and such a profound post.
ah thanks, yes I was cute once upon a time
what a cute picture – love that blond hair! Yeah we think there will be some great announcing clue of when we are all grown up and have it all together, but it seems we are who are and who we will be very early on, in the sense of personality that is. 🙂
that is true and if you do ever grow up tell em what it’s like please, as I will you
Carrie Rubin said:
“And I still catch myself thinking about what I want to do ‘when I grow up'”—I hear ya. But I guess it only makes sense to feel this way. Life really is a series of chapters, after all. Even if we’re still working the same job, our environments or other life elements have changed, keeping us forever hopeful. Because if hope and dreams die, what are we left with?
dead dreams … and that is no life, and how does one dispose of them, are they recyclables?
I love this post. ‘Growing up’, like many other things, is not what we think it is. I believe that it really meand to get over things and be able to go trhough stuff and beat difficulties. I remember that I was worried about myself when I turned 17..I even asked for help, because I wasn’t ‘behaving’ my age. I believe you have grown up, you have remained yourself, right?
that is true … someone said … growing up is turning into the person you are meant to be … not sure if that has happened but am trying
I think you’re so right…even now at my ‘senior’ year I don’t feel like I’ve changed very much from the young girl I was so many years ago… I’m just OLDER….Diane
and still very much you
Absolutely spot on!!
Coffee AND sweets….my treat!!
I am still surprised at times when someone treats me like a grown up. I deal like I have fooled them. If they only knew! 8)
I am so with you, expect to be found out any day