The day is stretching out ahead of me and all I can do is yawn. After two nights of little to no sleep and another day of too much activity in front of me all my thoughts circle around my bed, how comfy it is, how warm, how inviting and how many hours it will be till I can retire to it again, even if only for a short while as I have an early flight to catch tomorrow morning.
Not only does sleep allow you to disappear from reality for a while and swim in pools of dreams but it is vital for your health. Stress piles up without it but pounds can too. There seems to be a direct link between the lack of sleep and weight-gain, even if the scientists haven’t quite been able to figure out what that link actually is. However they do know that the less someone sleeps the harder they find it to lose weight or even maintain the pounds they have. And while sleep helps you remember and process the lack of it turns you into a forget being. In essences little sleeps does not only cut down your beauty regimes but it turns you into a stressed out, panda eyed, fat person who can’t remember a thing.
As bad as that may be it is not all! Testosterone levels build up while we sleep, especially during our REM sleep, the time of night where we sleep the deepest and probably snore the loudest. These levels steadily decrease during the day and only a good nights rest can raise them up again. This means that without sleep men lose their sex-drive and it can even lead to erectile dysfunction. But women aren’t safe either as they too need Testosterone for those sexy thoughts. In addition it also seems that women who sleep little are also more prone to heart problems as Testosterone has a protective effect on decreasing inflammation on this important muscle. So losing sleep can literately break your heart.
With all this in mind it doesn’t help that I feel sluggish and tired but am not done with my work yet. I will just have to live with the fact that for the next day of two I will aimlessly wander into rooms and forget what I wanted there, feel fat and unattractive and the rings under my eyes are steadily approaching my chin. And if this wasn’t bad enough I have to be at my vivacious, vivid best on Sunday.
At least it is nothing that a good nights sleep can’t fix. So again the yearning and yawning sets in and my daydreams revolve around my nighttime sleep.
I was stunned into awareness by a big bang this morning, well it may have been more of a metallic clatter. As I lay in bed, still unwilling to move, I ran through the different possibilities in my head of what the sound had been and where it had come from. I ruled out home-invasion, animals (except a few of those pesky ants) and burglary, which only left that something, somewhere in the house had been unable to defy gravity any longer and had fallen or jumped of its perch.
A little like Newton and the apple landing on his head, something falling down made me think about the different forces there are in the world, gravity being one of the big four. Without it the earth wouldn’t orbit around the sun, the moon couldn’t circle around the earth and we would all find it very hard to keep our feet on the ground.
Gravity is also the reason for fad diets and weight issues, without it we would all just float around, weightless, unaware of kilos, pounds and stones. We also use gravity to describe something really important, weighty or serious and words spoken with gravity mean they are solemn and dignified. The opposite of gravity is levity, which means frivolous, silly and changeable, in physics a theoretical force inherent to an object.
With these metaphysical thoughts floating around in my mind, no gravity there, I wandered around my home seeking the fallen object. To my surprise on the kitchen floor lay a lighthearted metal sign telling me I was queen, that had succumb to its own weight and the pull of gravity.
As I lifted up the sign and with the help of a pin defied gravity again, I decided that no matter how big the force, gravity is something I am quite happy to do without. Maybe this is not possible in a physical sense but in a philosophical one it is. This doesn’t mean I have to run around town dressed like a clown, but it will mean that I can try and make a conscious decision to not to take things to seriously and see the silliness in life, simply picking levity over gravity.
So like Elphaba in Wicked I think it’s time to make my own rules, defy the limits people set and just leap. So if you hear a big bang and a loud clatter it’s just me coming back to earth with the full force of gravity, levity letting me down.